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Finally took my tiki necklace off, and its not going on anymore. I’m tired of living in the past. After 2 years of wearing that necklace. I’m done. I’m officially moved on from you. The last piece of you I had left is gone. For good.

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Anonymous: DEAR EXBOYFRIEND.

Dear Chris,

Things are different now. Completely different. I see you, and I just don’t know who you are anymore. I used to know you so well. But now its like I learn something different everyday. I know it seems like a million years ago that we were together. You’re over it, and maybe it doesn’t mean anything to you anymore. It probably doesn’t and thats okay. I’ve learn a lot of things in the past year. You’ve made me so much stronger. You’ve broken me down so much. But I’m still here. I was really sad about it for months. The worst kind of sad. The kind where you know that theres nothing you can do about the situation. We would walk right past eachother like nothing. Nobody would ever guess that at one point we were completely inlove with eachother. I’d always ask myself how you could ignore me after everything we’ve been through. But day by day, I’d cry less. I wouldnt think about you as much, and day by day, you’d become more and more of my past. I dont think you’ll ever grasp how much you meant to me. You were the first guy I trusted completely, and gave my all to, and I don’t let people in that easy. You were always somehow there. I fell so hard for you. But I’ve learned to get up. A couple months ago, i’d still drop anything for you. But now its just not like that. Its not about you anymore. I hope you have a nice life. And I hope one day we can be friends again. And lastly, I hope you dont forget the good days you had with me.

-daniela.

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"You were the first person who broke my heart. For the rest of my life, you will always be the one who hurt me the most. Dont forget that."

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i wish i could get over it.

I know we never really dated, and all. But at one point you were mine. Even if you werent. I want to cry so hard whenever i see a picture of us. Theres so many. I dont have the guts to delete them. Theyre all still on my ipod. Our relationship was so different. And thats what I liked about it. We were never really a couple, but we acted like one in the strangest way. You made me happy. Really goddamn happy. But you hurt me in so many ways too. You brought me up, then pushed me back down. You brushed me off as if i meant shit to you. I still remember that day that i ran all the way to the tracks in the rain, just to talk to you because you were mad. But you were only mad because youcared.But then all you did was break me. All those things you said. Theyre still in the back of my head. Dont you realize that everything I said this summer i meant? Ever since April I was nothing but faithful to you. Maybe I should have trusted you more. But maybe you couldve been less of an asshole than you were. We were like fire and gasoline. But at the same time, you made me so happy. And yeah, I decided to end it. But at the same time i didnt want to. But i Knwow that its for the best. Because the second time around, after the big fight, all you did was hurt me. Have a nice life..

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Dear Megan Ashley Kohlweck,
If I wanted to I could make this longer than the dictionary. I have so much to say, that I dont think I can fit it into a short letter. I honestly dont know where i would be without you. Not only have youve been there with me through my strongest points, but youve stuck with me through my darkest points. Youve seen me cry, and full out bawl my eyes out. You were there with me through everything this year, and i cant tell you how thankful I am to have you as my best friend. We’re so alike but so different, and I guess thats what makes us get along so well. I love being able to tell you everything; I think you know more about me than my parents. But that’s what friends are for, right? You know everything about me; my past, and my present. You’re always there for me, as I am for you. I love that we have an unspoken friendship where just a look means so much more. You always know how to cheer me up, and you can always tell when my “I’m fine” isn’t completely honest. When I’m upset, it seems like you’re the only one who can make me laugh, like this weekend, which really says something about how close we are. I cant wait for your birthday! My babys growing up<33. I only want whats best for you, and even though you dont listen to me half the time, I cant blame you because I know thats what makes YOU happy. Well, the last thing I have to say is I wish you would stop thinking so low of yourself, and stop letting him determine your happiness. I know its not easy but you need to realize youre beautiful, and you dont need a guy to make you happy. His loss not yours. Love you buttmunch<3.
-danielalalala

Dear Megan Ashley Kohlweck,

If I wanted to I could make this longer than the dictionary. I have so much to say, that I dont think I can fit it into a short letter. I honestly dont know where i would be without you. Not only have youve been there with me through my strongest points, but youve stuck with me through my darkest points. Youve seen me cry, and full out bawl my eyes out. You were there with me through everything this year, and i cant tell you how thankful I am to have you as my best friend. We’re so alike but so different, and I guess thats what makes us get along so well. I love being able to tell you everything; I think you know more about me than my parents. But that’s what friends are for, right? You know everything about me; my past, and my present. You’re always there for me, as I am for you. I love that we have an unspoken friendship where just a look means so much more. You always know how to cheer me up, and you can always tell when my “I’m fine” isn’t completely honest. When I’m upset, it seems like you’re the only one who can make me laugh, like this weekend, which really says something about how close we are. I cant wait for your birthday! My babys growing up<33. I only want whats best for you, and even though you dont listen to me half the time, I cant blame you because I know thats what makes YOU happy. Well, the last thing I have to say is I wish you would stop thinking so low of yourself, and stop letting him determine your happiness. I know its not easy but you need to realize youre beautiful, and you dont need a guy to make you happy. His loss not yours. Love you buttmunch<3.

-danielalalala

i guess i’ll vennttttt.

I dont get it. i honestly dont. I really wish i could read your mind. This would be so much easier. Yeah, its hard to process my thoughts and feelings to you too. But this is ridiculous. And pathetic. We’re good, and then we get into a fight, and then you just ignore me. You stop talking to me, and then you come back like nothing ever happened. And you expect me to be okay with it. And its not. We’ve been going back and forth since April. And this summer. Its not fair to me. Its not fair that you can say all this bullshit to me, like that your life is so much better without me, and that you never cared about me, or that you regret everything about us. And then come back and say sorry an hour later. Do you not understand how much that hurts and affects me? You made me bawl my eyes out that day. And then you give me bullshit because you see me running to my BEST GUY FRIEND at midnight? You expect me to open up to you about everything when you never do the same. And then when i finally had enough and end things, you just come back. Like make up your mind. Youre breaking me. Slowly but surely. You seriously dont understand the effect that you have on me. I dont want to doubt you anymore. But i cant help it. Especially after that night, everything you say doubts me. I asked you last night how you felt. You said you didnt know. But i mean, it wouldnt change anything about us anyways. or our situation. Because why should I be the only one trying? Right? its not fair. Youve been pushing me away then pulling me back. That text you sent today, i just dont know. Because you told me how you felt, and what was on your mind, but when i actually want to talk about it, you dont reply. I just dont know what to do anymore. I just want to distance myself. Because this is fucking pointless.

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No matter how much hurt you&#8217;ve caused me and my mom, I still love you so much and I&#8217;m so greatful to have you a my father figure. ❤ #stepdad #throwback (Taken with instagram)

No matter how much hurt you’ve caused me and my mom, I still love you so much and I’m so greatful to have you a my father figure. ❤ #stepdad #throwback (Taken with instagram)